I haven't been on here since I announced I was getting a divorce, but I could really use some love/support/thoughts if any of you could spare some. So I had been dating this guy that I care a lot about. We've known each other three years and he always had a big thing for me, so we gave it a try. He made me happier than I've been in a long, long time. I fell in love and he did too, or at least he said he did. A week ago he told me that he still had lingering feelings for his ex who he had broken up with right before we got together, and that he didn't want to continue a relationship with me until he got over them. Now he is back to spending all of his time with her. To make matters worse, we all work together so I have to spend all day seeing him and them together. Oh, and we also live in the same apartment complex, literally right across the street from each other. It's honestly the worst possible situation, and I'm completely devastated.
So now I'm wondering if I should just pack up all my things and move back home to Oregon. Why stay in CT when there's nothing left for me here? My divorce is finalized on Thursday and then that's it. I'm completely, utterly alone. The thought of being back with my family is comforting, but the finality of it all is heartbreaking. I've made a couple good friends but it's just not the same. The only thing that makes me hesitant to move is the fact that I wouldn't get to see my dog anymore because my ex gets her most of the time, and she's my baby. I don't know what to do, all I know is that I am miserable. And very, very alone.
Re: Hey everybody. Can I be a debbie downer for a minute?
TTC since June 2009
01/10- Femara
03/10- Femara
07/2010- Clomid with injectables and IUI #1
08/2010- IUI #2
06/2011- IVF #1 BFP!
09/2011- Miscarriage at 10 1/2 weeks
11/2011- FET
01/2012- Start Home Study process
03/2012- Home Study approved and now waiting on our child to find us!
07/2012- matched with a BM who is due in October!
11/10/12- our son is born!
11/13/12- court grants us custody!
12/28/12- finalization! Always ours in our hearts, but.now also ours forever
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